I am aware. That's the difference.

Yesterday, I got my crush confess to me. He told me that he loves me. And yes, of course, i felt so happy that the feeling is mutual. But, i say to myself,

until when will this last?

how will it end?

how much pain will this cause me?

I’m scared because I am aware of those feelings. Feeling of getting hurt and the feeling of being empty again. It sucks to be aware of those things. I want to be happy. I told myself to just go with the flow and enjoy the moment. But, seriously, i can’t just do that. Those questions kept bothering me. 

I just can’t fall in love the same way I did before. It’s just different.